S. Rolling

S. Rolling

California, USA
Living with lupus, rheumatoid arthritis, and POTS. Writing about nervous system regulation, outdoor life, and what I've learned while trying to build a life inside chronic illness. Sharing the tools I wish I'd had 40 years ago. Still Rolling.
21
Jul
Stone and Weather

Stone and Weather

Shortening the Gap
4 min read
18
Jul

Stupid Games

POTS management often starts with limitation. That was never part of my calculation.
4 min read
13
Jul
Monkey Arms

Monkey Arms

What an orthopedic surgeon's theory about apes has to do with a compressed nerve.
3 min read
11
Jul
Before You Can't

Before You Can't

The Cost of Unsettled Things
4 min read
11
Jul
And It Stoned Me

And It Stoned Me

Content note: childhood abuse, early substance use. I heard that song for the first time when I was six or
3 min read
08
Jul
The Dressing

The Dressing

Green Goddess, Tahini, Caesar-ish. Just make it.
2 min read
06
Jul
Competence Mask

Competence Mask

When capability becomes the only safe way to exist.
4 min read
03
Jul
The Clearing

The Clearing

Some years the fog takes it. That year it didn't.
2 min read
30
Jun
Dead Reckoning

Dead Reckoning

The gauges don't redline. They just stop meaning anything. Outside is where I learned to read them again.
4 min read
26
Jun
Late afternoon early evening dappled light over creekflow.

The Light on It

For over a week I didn't get off the floor. Yesterday the warnings were mostly gone. So I went to the creek.
3 min read