Still Rolling Outdoors
Chronic illness life. Lupus, RA, POTS. Nature, nervous system, trauma recovery. Hiking, fishing, riding. Still rolling.

Latest Posts

11
Jul
Before You Can't

Before You Can't

The Cost of Unsettled Things
5 min read
11
Jul
And It Stoned Me

And It Stoned Me

Content note: childhood abuse, early substance use. I heard that song for the first time when I was six or
3 min read
08
Jul
The Dressing

The Dressing

Green Goddess, Tahini, Caesar-ish. Just make it.
2 min read
06
Jul
Competence Mask

Competence Mask

When capability becomes the only safe way to exist.
4 min read
03
Jul
The Clearing

The Clearing

Some years the fog takes it. That year it didn't.
2 min read
30
Jun
Dead Reckoning

Dead Reckoning

The gauges don't redline. They just stop meaning anything. Outside is where I learned to read them again.
4 min read
26
Jun
Late afternoon early evening dappled light over creekflow.

The Light on It

For over a week I didn't get off the floor. Yesterday the warnings were mostly gone. So I went to the creek.
3 min read
21
Jun
Close Enough to Be In Them

Close Enough to Be In Them

The response was real. Thirty years to see where it came from.
5 min read
20
Jun
The Ground You Lose

The Ground You Lose

What flares take, what soft tissue work gives back, and why mobility has to be reclaimed before it can be strengthened.
4 min read
14
Jun
Breakfast Was Never About Breakfast

Breakfast Was Never About Breakfast

The deficit is real. Breakfast is where you stop adding to it.
2 min read