The Stillness Between the Steps

Mile three, my body hit a wall.

Not the kind where you push through.
The kind where the nervous system says:
We're done. Sit down. Now.

So I did.

Found a flat spot off the trail.
Dropped the pack. Sat.
No plan for how long.
Just sitting because I couldn't do anything else.

The first few minutes were restless.
Mind spinning through calculations:
How much daylight left?
Can I make the turnaround if I rest too long?
What if someone sees me just sitting here?

But then something happened.

The spin slowed.
My breath deepened without trying.
The static in my chest started to settle.

I noticed the wind moving through the pines.
The way light shifted across the valley.
The fact that I could feel my feet again,
not just the pain, but the contact with the ground.

I didn't plan that pause.
My body forced it.
But in those ten minutes of sitting,
something integrated that wouldn't have
if I'd kept grinding forward.

I used to think healing happened in the doing.
The miles logged. The protocols followed.
The relentless forward motion that proved
I was still capable, still strong, still fighting.

But the real work?
It happens in the spaces between.

When the nervous system finally has room to exhale.
When the body stops defending long enough
to actually feel what it's been carrying.
When the mind stops narrating the struggle
and just exists for a few minutes.

Those pauses aren't wasted time.
They're where the lessons actually land.
Where the system recalibrates.
Where healing stops being performance
and starts being integration.

I still forget this most days.
Still push when I should pause.
Still measure progress in motion
rather than in what settles during stillness.

But I'm learning.

The trail doesn't just exist in the steps.
It exists in the moments between them.
In the rock where you sat when you couldn't go further.
In the breath that deepened when you finally stopped moving.

The pause is not empty.
It's where the nervous system remembers
it's allowed to be safe.

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→ Related: The Wisdom of Slowness
→ Also: Letting the Soil Rest

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