The Story Behind SRO

I didn't set out to build a blog or a brand...

I just wanted to survive.

Still Rolling Outdoors began as a quiet idea — a faceless, voiceless ASMR-style YouTube channel. Nature as medicine. Motion as regulation. No narration. No drama. Just texture, rhythm, and breath.

But gear costs money. And I live in a different reality now: limited income, limited work capacity, and no financial cushion after years of caregiving and the disability that followed. So I started with what I had: words.

The blog became a way to offer something real to others navigating chronic illness and trauma. Not advice. Not transformation. Just presence, pacing, and a place to breathe.

I live with multiple chronic conditions. I've learned to work with my body, to find ways to move, breathe, and be outside, even when energy is limited. Not to inspire anyone, but because I had no other choice. When conventional approaches failed — or caused more harm — I was forced to find another way forward.

I don't want to be a public figure. I don't want to be on camera. But I do want to offer something that helps. Something that meets people where they are, especially those who've been failed by systems, medicine, and culture.

Where We Are Now

The work has grown. The YouTube channel that started as a quiet idea is live now — short sensory recordings capturing sound, light, and motion. Micro-adventures that document hiking, fishing, and motorcycle rides — that fit available energy. The blog holds essays, reflections and informational resources.

This archive isn't about spectacle or transformation. It's about building something livable: a way forward that honors trauma, respects limits, and still seeks joy, connection, and aliveness.

The archive began with survival. The voice came from what survived.

I didn't write this space for an audience. I wrote the way I've always written — poetic, contemplative, reflective. My thinking has been shaped by teachers and frameworks that prioritize clarity over transformation. I've taken what resonates and left the rest.

What I carry is a lifelong hyper-vigilance. What I practice is daily regulation. I'm not "doing the work" — I'm building something livable. A way forward that doesn't drown in trauma, pain, illness or doing avoidance (spiritual bypass).

Nature helps turn down the volume. Presence helps recode the system. Peace and agency, when they come, arrive through repetition, not revelation.

This page exists for those who want to understand the roots of the archive. Quietly offered. No spotlight.

You're not alone. You're still rolling.

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