Living From What's True

The journey doesn't end in perfection. It doesn't end in constant alignment or unshakeable sovereignty. Most days, it just ends in showing up as honestly as I can manage.

Living from what's true means different things on different days. Sometimes it means honoring my body's need to rest without shame. Sometimes it means pushing through manageable discomfort because staying stuck feels worse. Sometimes it means admitting I don't know the difference.

What changed isn't that I figured out the perfect formula for living. What changed is that I stopped performing wellness and started making decisions based on what actually serves my situation. Even when those decisions don't look inspiring or optimal.

This morning I could barely get out of bed. Yesterday I hiked six miles. Both were responses to what felt true in those moments. The contradiction doesn't negate either choice. It just reflects the reality that healing isn't linear and bodies aren't predictable.

I used to think alignment meant consistency—feeling the same way about the same things, making choices that fit a coherent narrative about who I am. Now I think alignment might mean responding authentically to what's actually happening instead of what I think should be happening.

The real freedom isn't freedom from struggle or uncertainty. It's freedom from the need to pretend those things aren't part of the experience. Freedom to show up imperfectly, to make decisions with incomplete information, to keep adjusting as more becomes clear.

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*Peer reflection, not therapy advice. Your healing journey is uniquely yours.*