The Full Spectrum of Sovereignty

Sovereignty. Yeah, I know how that word sounds.

A year ago, I would've heard it and thought "privileged wellness speak.

But sovereignty isn't about ignoring pain or pretending to be invincible. It's about acknowledging both struggle and growth. It means living with chronic illness and choosing to show up for life. Not by defying your body's limits, but by working with them.

On days when the pain is overwhelming, sovereignty doesn't mean pushing harder, it means choosing how to meet the moment. Sometimes that choice feels dignified. Other times it looks like crying at the trailhead because the pain is excruciating but I'm going anyway.

That gap between the ideal and the reality? That's where sovereignty actually lives. Not in the moments when everything aligns perfectly, but in the messy space where you're making choices with whatever capacity you have.

Even with pain, even imperfectly, it carries an emotional weight that’s hard to name. Maybe it’s a quiet joy in the experience itself, no matter what the day brings. Not the happy-horseshit “all is well with the world” kind of joy — something else. I’m still trying to feel it out, to find words that fit.

Maybe it’s closer to gratitude for the experience, however it plays out. A way to engage joy despite the limitations, peace in the discomfort, and purpose in the present, even when the body doesn’t cooperate. It’s not control over outcomes; it’s control over how we respond to circumstances we can’t change.

Though I’m still learning the difference between responding and just surviving in style. Most days I can’t tell which one I’m doing until after the fact.

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*Peer reflection, not therapy advice. Your healing journey is uniquely yours.*