Layer One: Start Where You Are

I Didn’t Land Here Because It Was Inspiring

I landed here because I had nothing left. Because walking felt like collapse in motion. Because sleep came only after negotiating with pain. Because I couldn’t find a single part of my body that didn’t feel like a threat.

So I stopped trying to win. Stopped chasing breakthroughs. Stopped pretending “healing” had to look like hope.

I Picked Three Things

This isn’t about goals. It’s about keeping your body from giving up on you.

• Sleep
• Food that didn’t make things worse
• Moving just enough to not fall apart

Not self-care. Not discipline. Not a plan. Just self-preservation.
And in all those tiny repetitions — I started rolling again.

Sleep

Not perfect sleep. Not deep rest. Just enough to not feel like I died in my own body overnight. Sometimes it meant a 9pm shutdown. Sometimes it meant an eye mask and a cool rag just long enough to drift.

Sleep Starts with Waking. People obsess over bedtime. But waking up at the same time every day - was what shifted everything , even when I was wrecked

The body learns safety through rhythm. Fatigue started landing at the right time.
Not because I forced it, but because I earned it. It wasn’t discipline. It was a survival anchor.

Food That Didn’t Hurt

No diets. No spreadsheets. Just this: What won’t wreck me today?

You Probably Already Know What Hurts. Most people already know what messes them up. They just don’t want to admit it. Because that thing feels comforting.

Bread. Dairy. Sugar. Alcohol. Whatever it is. It’s not mysterious. It’s emotional. I used to cling to foods like they were the last good thing I had... The things illness couldn't take from me. But once I let go of one? The fog lifted. My brain came back online.

It wasn’t comfort. It was poison disguised as a coping mechanism.

You Don’t Have to Go Full Elimination... Just eat less shit. Then try pulling one thing. Reintroduce it. See what your body says. It’s not restriction. It’s information. And your body’s been telling you the truth for years.

Movement That Doesn’t Break You

This wasn’t exercise. This was: Can I walk to the mailbox without crying?

Some days it was ankle circles in bed. Some days it was a 3-minute roll on a trail, just to remember I still exist. It wasn’t pretty. It looked like a baby deer learning to walk. Mixed with a senior in denial about needing a cane.

But it was motion. And motion gave me momentum.

What Changed

Not everything. Not all at once. But enough.

I started thinking clearer. I didn’t hate my body quite as much. I could go to the grocery store without a breakdown. I remembered... That I used to want to live.

This is where I started. And if you’re here, wrecked, raw, lost...
This is where you can start too.

You Don’t Need a Plan

You don’t need a diagnosis. You don’t need a spreadsheet. You don’t need to “heal” in public. You just need to feel a little more human. A little more here. That’s Layer One and that’s enough.

If your breath got easier while reading this... That’s Layer One doing its job.

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*This reflects personal experience, this is not medical advice. What helped me might not work for you. Talk to your medical team about what's right for your body.*