Still Rolling Out
An unflinching account of healing that rejects...
The glossy wellness promises of affirming narratives, transformation or cures.
This four-part series follows the ongoing, messy reality of chronic illness. Where medicine is found in movement, and meaning emerges in the wild. It's about reclaiming the body, coexisting with trauma's residue, finding strength within limitation, and claiming sovereignty when all the terms shift.
This is not inspiration porn. Not spiritual bypass. It's a brutally practical reckoning with the gap between wellness ideals and chronic reality. Hope here is genuine and quiet—appearing in small, durable changes, not cures.
Hiking becomes both metaphor and medicine. Movement as resistance. Presence as rebellion. The nervous system steadies in what nature repeats: wind, water, the patience of stone—systems older and steadier than trauma.
This is permission to heal imperfectly. To count showing up as victory. Nature asks no performance, only presence.
You don't have to be better to begin. You're still rolling.
Series One
Returning to hiking not as therapy, but for survival. Reclaiming relationship with a body that feels like a betrayer. Nature doesn’t demand performance — only presence. Each post captures micro-victories and the radical act of showing up when everything hurts.
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1.1 - Body in the Wild
1.2 - Cardio, Not Just Courage
1.3 - The Real Reason I'm Out Here
1.4 - Micro Wins, Real Progress
1.5 - The Forrest Reflects
1.6 - Silence is a Form of Safety
1.7 - Grief Meets Grace
1.8 - Becoming / Returning
1.9 - Not Getting Better, Just Getting Free
1.10 - Growing Around the Wound
Series Two
Exploring trauma’s physical residue. The nervous system speaks in breath patterns and startles. This isn't about "healing trauma" but about learning to coexist with a body that remembers what the mind tried to forget.
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Series Three
Tackles the uncomfortable truth that struggle often becomes teacher. Without falling into toxic positivity, it explores how limitations force a different kind of strength. Not dominance, but harmony.
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Series Four
Examines what sovereignty actually means when your body sets the terms. It's about thriving within constraints rather than despite them, finding authentic self-expression.
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4.1 - The Full Spectrum of Sovereignty
4.2 - Self-Care: Embracing Imperfection
4.3 - The Power of Purpose: Living with Intention Amid Limitation
4.4 - Thriving in Fullness: Owning Your Experience, Regardless of Pain
4.5 - Self-Expression: Ownership, Without Apology
4.6 - The Art of Rest: Creating Space to Live Fully
4.7 - The Joy of Imperfection: Finding Beauty in the Mess
4.8 - Living Beyond Survival: Journey from Struggle to Sovereignty
Act Zero: Prologue
Traces the moment before the archive began—when survival was uncertain and sovereignty hadn’t yet taken shape. It’s not part of the arc. It’s what made the arc possible.
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Walking Beside, Not Ahead
These trails are stories, not instructions. I'm not here to tell you what you should do or how you ought to heal. You carry your own map. I carry mine.
We meet on the path, trade company, and keep moving in our own directions. If you find something here that makes your journey lighter, take it. If not, leave it on the trail for someone else.
*Still Rolling Outdoors is a blog of peer perspectives and reflections. Your healing journey is uniquely yours. Nothing here should be confused with medical or therapy advice. (More about this approach)*